Potential

Sometimes I feel awful that I have misled people I care about (mainly my sisters) to think that I am better than I am. It almost feels like I need to prove to them that I am not really that great - but today I had a thought.... Maybe I should try to prove to them that I am! :) Genius!
This has been a weird week or two for me.... I felt like I was experiencing a little bit of depression. I have been trying to have an extremely tight budget, make sure my family isn't living off of crackers and pb&j, not drive anywhere to preserve gas, and I have really been missing working (especially with my awesome cousins). Poor Tyler would leave for work with a happy wife and come home to a monster! I pretty much wrote and rewrote blog entries inside my head everyday and thank heavens I never actually posted them or I may look psycho! ANYWAY... as I was exercising with Jillian Michaels - or her wii self - a little "tip" came up that said something to the effect of If you are feeling depressed or like an emotional glacier everyday find a healthy hobby! What a great idea!
So... I am taking up diligent scripture study! ha! It is free - readily available - will remove guilt from negligence - and I have to say.... I am a little addicted! Not only to scriptures but have you read Daughters in my Kingdom? It is FANTASTIC! I love it!
Perhaps this will help me to rise to the potential that my family and Heavenly Father see in me! What a blessing it  is to have a testimony. I cannot express my gratitude for a Savior who is willing to help carry my burden and lift me up.